So today was my follow up u/s. I went in with a full bladder as required and we waited there for about a half hour.
Finally we were ushered back to the u/s room and the tech began doing what she needed to do. And asked if I had another u/s done elsewhere and I told her St Joes Peri center. And she began looking around.... and I had mentioned to her that the baby was measuring at 3mm as of last Wendesday.
She continued looking and she confirmed what I thought was happening and what had been seen last week. A 3mm fetal pole with no hb. :(
The Radiologist came in and confirmed it as well.
Well.. following the u/s I had my dr's appt. And getting there was painful.. the tears began and I was just a mess.
I finally got to go back into one of the rooms and the nurse took my bp- I didn't catch what it was today but I assume it had to be up there with last weeks.
After some time the dr came in and we discussed things ....... mainly the fact that if there hasn't been change yet there probably won't be. And I agreed....... I've had that thought in my head the entire ride to the dr's. So it was just confirmation from the dr.
We decided the best way, the less emotional way for us to deal with this is to get a D&C done. So I am scheduled for one at 230 pm tomorrow......
And the game plan for after this is that I'll meet with an endocronologist and discuss my diabetes treatment, be put on some sort of birth control. Personally speaking I want to get my weight as well as DH's weight under control before we consider TTC again.
So here we are at the beginning of the end.
I am sad , we both are but this is part of God's plan I'm sure! If God didn't think we could handle another loss HE wouldn't have us going through this again.
So thank you to everyone whos been there supporting, praying and sending us positive thoughts! We greatly appreciate them all! And please if I can ask for continued prayers while we take this and heal from this in the days, weeks, months to come........ Thank you!!
~~Jayden please be gentle with your baby brother or sister! And buttercup know that we love you as much as we love your big brother, we'll miss you and sorry we didn't get the chance to meet you~~
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
So sorry to hear the news of your loss. Be patient with yourself and my best advice (which is what I did after my second loss) is to take care of yourself and what you feel you need to do. We also visited an endocronologist and it turned to be a positive experience for us. Keep us posted and the Lord give you and your husband strength and comfort!
ReplyDelete