Obsession!

So I catch myself awake every night wondering if my hCg levels are rising! This is my newest obsession. I thought that the obsession would end after I got the "positive" tests but I was wrong.
All I can think of is "how do I search and see if my numbers doubled and doubling?", or "I wonder if I can call for a beta draw again?", or "am I driving myself, driving my husband crazy with my nuttiness?".

I just want to know that all is going well with the pregnancy. I want to know this because I don't want to go through another loss....... not in the first, second, or third trimester... or even after birth!! All I want is a healthy happy baby to come home with us!!

I have very little symptims. So I can't be assured that things are okay when I don't have symptoms such as hugging the toilet bowl......
All I have are cravings, late night ones when the hubby is not here go get them for me :(

All I want is for the 24th to hurry and come!! So that I can see the dr and get confirmation that all is going well... and have another beta draw!! AHHHH the obsession is killing me and stressing me out!!!

Oh well. Guess I'll go back to reading my book and see if I can find some ease and comfort from it!

Well this is the update for today!