Today's appt - 2/24

Well we met with the midwife today! She went over our history, our loss of Jayden and other issues I am concerned about. I was given blood work req for fasting glucose and A1c and for some reason HIV (apparently ir's routine now). And she gave me paperwork for an u/s to be performed by a perinatologist. So I have an appt at the hospital next wed at 215 to meet with a Peri and have an u/s! So we'll get to see Peanut on that screen for the first time- unless I can get my dr to order one on Thursday!I have to go see my OB on Thurs at 530! So we can work out a plan of action and a way that we can "prevent" another loss.... which is a relief but the thought that we are planning this scares me..... As of now my EDD is Oct 1st which I told the mw was wrong cause I can't go along with my LMP , seeing how they are not the normal 28 day cycles, not even 32 day cycles..... so we'll figure it out on u/s! My guess for my EDD is between Oct 13 and Oct 18 so anything goes for now! LOL! It's nice to finally be taken seriously and have a course of action in place.... but at the same time I wish I could be "ignorant" and "blissful" and be "over the moon" about things- and not fear that one lousy cramp could be the end or one day of no sore breasts be the end? KWIM? As the midwife told us.. it's those "pregnancy symptoms" that we women look for just so we are SURE that this is going to happen. And that's why when one of those symptoms desipate or go missing for more than a day or so we freak out! and it's normal!! Normal , not crazy or not something to be taken lightly but know that these are valid points and we as PAL mommies to be we need that reassurance from a sore breast, queasiness, aversions to smells, and all the other symptoms that some "non PAL mommies" take for granted. I guess you have to step into the shoes of a PAL mommy to know what we fear and what we enjoy as a "normal" pregnancy now. I am more than grateful for the group of dr's and mw's I will be dealing with through this pregnnacy! I'm glad I have them , those who understand my fears and concerns and are willing to take every step to ensure that this lil Peanut and I are safe! And that makes us all feel 50% better! We'll be 100% when we have the new lil bundle of joy in our arms come Oct!Well guess that's all for tonight! ..